Over spring break, Susan and I went to visit Grandma in Pennsylvania. We thought we would be there to encourage her through rehab, instead we were her advocate in the hospital.
Between Grandma's sleep and being cognisant of what was going on around her, she was in a prayerful/unconscious state. She prayed her Rosary on average of 30 minutes each time she was awaking up from a nap. Even though listening to her pray, sometimes in agony was comforting to hear, it was also a little eerie. It was comforting to know Jesus is her Savior, and one day we will be reunited in Heaven healed from all illness. On the eerie side, countless times, Susan and I looked at each other like, "Is this it?" "Is she knocking at the door of Heaven?" "Should we be calling the family?".
As I sat there listening to her, I began to wonder what would come out of me if I were in that position? I would hope I would be praying or singing, or maybe singing "Amazing Grace". I am afraid though, maybe I would be repeating facebook statuses, plot lines from books or tv shows, or some worthless earthly knowledge. What you spend your time on is what you value. I am afraid my sinful human self takes my eyes off the cross.
The automatic thing for Grandma is to pray her Rosary because she has been in the Catholic church every Sunday and every holy day of her life. She prays every morning, night, and anytime in between. Church and her relationship with God is where she has invested her time through out her life.
My challenge to you today, is to think about this...what do you spend your time on? What is in your soul and at your core?
"Praise the Lord, O my soul; all my inmost being, praise His holy name. Praise the Lord, Oh my soul, and forget not all his benefits- who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things so that your youth is renewed like the eagle's." Psalm 103:1-5